pAin insidE the bRoken heArT....

I can't stand with all the pain
inside my broken heart
the pain that make me suffer
the pain that broke my heart into pieces

What should I do??
I can't run away
I can't go back to the past
should I kill myself?
I don't think it's a good idea
I have no guts to face all this
I'm just a weak person

What should I do?
I'm jealous with others' happiness
I hate to see their relationship
Why??
why I not like them?
should I ruin their happiness?
Argh!!
Why must i thought of those stupid things..?